My Life Journal Story
I first started making these journals circa 2015, but they fell to the wayside for many years, until recently I had the idea to start them again. I still have all the stuff and I just love making them. The following is something I wrote back then, but it all still holds true today. My younger self was wise.
Early in the year 2014, I was working part time in the city of Sydney, taking care of my five and a half year old daughter (who had just started primary school) and also trying to have a life of my own. Then in June of that same year, my world came tumbling down when my mum was diagnosed with uterine cancer that had already spread to her lungs. At every doctors appointment, the news got worse and it wasn’t too long before she was diagnosed as terminal.
From the day she found out to the day she died was three months and four days.
When we knew she was sick, my sister and I decided that we had to move closer to help my stepdad and younger brother, they all lived in Canberra. My sister was in Melbourne with her young daughter and partner, and I was coming from Sydney. Unfortunately, due to unforeseen circumstances, I was unable to make the move, but I was able to leave my job and be in Canberra as much as possible. Having that time with my mum and the rest of my family, blessed and reshaped my whole perspective on life. This was due largely to my mums spiritual and peaceful nature throughout the process, which grew as she got sicker and touched us all deeply. She was tapped into a world that is always present, its just that the rest of us don’t know the way yet. If only we could get there while we are well, we might see some more peace on this planet. The experience made me see that realise the real me, while I have this life and this body to stope wasting time doing things that dont make me happy or make my heart sing. I hope that through my artworks and creations I can in any way spread some of what my mum gave to me.
These journals that I have created are an expression of my inner heart and soul, with prints of drawings that I have done ever since my mum died. I have collected photos, postcards and a variety of different papers and cardboard from all over the place. They are now for you to pour your heart and soul into, to fill with experiences and memories from your life, so that our lives may forever be entwined and connected, like they already are in that spiritual world my mum saw. To make the world a better place one colourful page at a time.